Top 3 Things I Wish I Knew When I Was Younger
Trust The Process. Everything Happens For A Reason. Begin Again.
I grew up without any religion. When my parents married, my dad renounced his Catholicism and my mom let go of her Judaism. They decided when I was born that i should just figure life out for myself. There was a downside to their masterplan they had for me, AND an awakening upside.
My childhood, from most of what I can remember, was an experiment.
Being brought up without a value driven religion or system in place, zero guidelines of how to be or react in the world, left me feeling small and unsure about life. I’m not bashing my parents for what they chose for me, I now see it was a quest for me to learn about life for myself.
Throughout my path (childhood and into my teens) I was tested by being bullied, depressed and physically sick. From those experiences I came to learn to trust the process of the path that I’ve been given. From that time of my life, I found Yoga. It was my paradox. I moved like water with freedom and grace and sat in the fire of all the shitty self-talk. I left my mat with more awareness, compassion and spaciousness. For too long I had felt small and tense.
As the creator of my reality, I have created in my belief system, that there is always a reason for everything that happens. That things are not happening to us, but for us. What we label as good or bad, right or wrong, I believe those experiences are designed to shape you, and hopefully grow you into the mightiest you possible.
We create meaning along the way about our experiences and relationships, but to trust the process of life and loves timing is like a muscle that needs to be trained. I had to condition my thinking to believe that the universe has my back. And when shit gets tough and i fail and fall, i have a choice to begin again.
When I used to have really low, on the edge of depressed days, that leave me bed ridden, I would have to tell myself that this is it… I can either feed the fear or fuel optimism. I still have low days, but now it’s a choiceless choice to feel my optimal self. I begin again, and again and again for the sake of conditioning my mind to move past the barriers that keep me living small and tense.
One of my mantras for the morning blues is “The day will go the way the corners of your mouth turn.” Instantly takes me from grumpy to grateful.
So, from my experience I leave you here with these lessons I wish I knew when I was younger… to trust the process that everything happens for a reason and that the strength in falling and failing is beginning again.
What are three lessons you wish you knew when you were younger?
xo C.
Image Source: Ram Das, Be Here Now
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